"i've just gotta say it!"
August 2009
kathleen howe
I'm back to work here and
all over the network as well as www.selfgrowth.com - newsvine.com - my new blog at
living with emotional feelings, intuit.com, and I'm beginning to write for another online publication called the examiner.com. It's all in a days work!
Typing my fingers to the bone has been most of my days recently, but I'm working on some other things as well, most directly
- my own self. I suddenly realized that I was too focused on one thing - my mental health.
Last month I began changing
my thought processes a bit to examine what goals I need to consider making so I can prioritize them and make plans to accomplish
each one. I have let myself go, "physically" and that's not good. While my mental health continues to be a struggle, I was
under the impression that I would be able to get it under control and be able to go on with the next thing. Mental health
issues aren't quite that simple to beat or so I'm finding out anyway, especially being diagnosed with post traumatic stress
disorder.
I went to a sleep clinic
and found that I was waking up between 35-40 times per hour each night. I have sleep apnea which has continually gotten worse
with weight gain. My oxygen saturation is also sinking down to 50% at times while I'm sleeping which is also very bad. So
I am getting a CPAP machine. I'll be writing my story about my sleep problems and how I'm trying to alleviate them within
the next six months over at anxieties 101 on the sleep page.
I have also gained a huge
amount of weight because of my leg. If you haven't read about my accident I had six years ago, I have had a very weak leg
that swells constantly around my ankle, gives me too much pain and I can't walk but for a few yards and I have to sit down.
I just can't exercise the way I have always exercise in the past.
So I am considering taking on swimming.
I'm so excited about it. I have found that the only thing I can do about my leg is to lose weight and have cortisone shots
into my ankle. Perhaps after losing some weight and strengthening my legs with a non weight bearing exercise I'll have less
pain at the end of each day.
I'm also going to rent some
yoga cd's and see if I can find one I like - then I'll buy it. I need to devote some time to relaxation, meditation and yoga.
I'm excited that I've made the decision to actually incorporate these very important activities into my daily regime.
There's a website I'm very
excited about and it's outside my network, it's www.innerbonding.com. I suggest that everyone visit the website and register to read
some of the free articles Margaret has on her site. I'm registered, and I've added her to my facebook, but I'm going to purchase
some of her materials and start working on inner bonding. I've found that this is the most important step for me to take in
finding out how to love myself.
I have some issues within
my family that I need to concentrate on as well. I will be taking some important time off of working and writing to see if
I can interupt the dysfunction that's currently making many people within my family miserable. I have made plans to take a
few trips on my own without the rest of the family so I can spend some quality time with a few of my adult children. I'm hoping
that things go well with them. My first trip is in September and it's to New York City! I'm very excited about it.
Here at the emotional feelings network of sites I've been trying to get all the sites looking the same and finished.
I've changed the homepages of each site or added a "network guide" which you will find directly after the homepage in the
navigational panel on the left hand side of the page. Tripod is changing their site building program to a new one so each
site will have to be transferred over to this new web tool. This month will be busy for me transferring over 30 websites to
the new tool. It will be interesting so wish me luck. If you see strange looks or changes to the format or background you'll
know why.
As soon as I get all the
sites transferred over I'll be finishing up the current sites listed on the homepages and then tweaking them all so that each
page will contain up to date information unless of course, the information seems to be timeless as some surely is. So as you
can see, I've been formulating a plan to get these sites in tip top shape so they take less time to maintain.
I haven't had an income
for seven years so that is one of my priorities. While I'll never make the emotional feelings network of sites a profitable
venture - I am working on a project that will make money on the Internet so I need to keep my time frame flexible with working
on the basics of setting up a new business. This is why I am branching out and writing some articles on other network sites
so that I can meet some people who I may be able to do business with in the future.
Perhaps I'll be sharing
some good fish stories with you all as I'm going to be doing some night fishing this month with my husband. August always
seems to have the most meteor showers and the weather will be nice still before fall comes. I've missed night fishing with
him. Part of my personal growth and recovery journey will now revolve around working on my relationships and my marriage is
one that could use a small amount of extra work - so I pick fishing in August! Watch out you big channel cats, I'll be catching
you with my mean ol' "Ugly Stick" soon!
As for all of you, I thank
you for continuing to visit the emotional feelings network of sites. I've begun to pay for
a few of the sites so that I could increase the amount of information on those sites as well as monitoring the visitors who
come to the site. This information that's available to me shows me what you all are searching for when you come to the sites.
So after I collect that information, I will research whatever it is you've been looking for and add the info to the appropriate
pages so the next time you come looking the info will be there.
I'm thankful to get that
information because it helps to guide me towards information that you all are looking for thus keeping me current and interesting!
There's more to come that I'll tell you about in September, so keep visiting and send me an email now and then to say hello!
It's those emails that keep me going!
